I continued contemplating. 1200am. I was sweating from the heater. And then came the most ironic fact. At 11000 feet, I took off my shirt and lay in bed HALF NAKED. The IRONY! Was too tired to get down from the top bunk to turn the heater off, so I whispered, “Is anyone awake?” Someone whispered back, “Yeah.” I asked to turn the heater off and he got out of bed, turned it down. I think. It was still hot, and the red light from the power switch was still beaming.
My disarrayed mind was keeping me awake, though I was not thinking intensely. I try and calm my mind and clear my head but there was not a single 5 minute period of silence in the dorm that I needed to knock off. Grunts, movement, and … flatulence. Gah.
Semi-conscious, I lay motionless for the next hour or so before the Filipinos started getting all excited about starting their journey. It was ONLY 1 AM! I cover my eyes with my polo tee to block out the room light they turned on. What’s worse than hearing voices that keep you up early in the morning? Well, hearing voices of a language you DO NOT understand. Prolly whispering, but that’s probably relative to where you’re from.
By this point, I still have not made my decision. A decision that would either make me, or break me. Or both. Allow me to explain: Go up there and be broken by the mountain, arrive at the top, and be made. Or .. be broken and live with the disappointment, and be a letdown. I look at my watch and it tells me that it’s time to get up and face the mountain. I reluctantly sat up on my bed and put polo tee on. Gosh it stinks. I actually packed a t-shirt, but while the light was on, I peeked at what was happening and I saw some people in ski masks. I didn’t have one, so I decided to make myself one. Remember those days when we used to pretend to be ninjas? How we’d use a t-shirt and tie the sleeves behind our heads to leave our eyes exposed through the collar? Ah. Ingenius, ain’t I? Well, I was in an all black attire, except for my ORANGE ninja head .. which was an iCell t-shirt for the Youth Zone.
I went out to the toilet, which was just to the right of my dorm room door and I turned on the tap. The water, as expected was freezing cold, and I managed to wash my face with facial wash I brought in a small tube. Then I felt as though I needed to attend to a business transaction there and then but when I looked at the “bank roll”, they couldn’t provide the necessary “papers” for the transaction. So I looked outside the stalls to see if they had any dispensers, but all I found was a sign that read…
Please throw your rubbish and sanitary pads into this dustbin. Thank you.
Sanitary pads? Whoops. Good thing everyone was downstairs having their breakie. Now, I’ve truly lost my own confidence in the “business deal”. Suck it all in. Literally.
Did you notice that I didn’t mention anything about a shower, toilet trip, or oral hygiene? Well, I didn’t shower after the 8 and a half hour trek, I didn’t change into fresh clothes, and I didn’t brush my teeth the night before? The only time I went to the toilet was then I found the men’s toilet after I left my dorm room. It was on the left side.
Oh, one more unglorifying fact since I’m airing my laundry in public here: I didn’t change underwear too! For the whole trip!
Got changed, ate a piece of the sandwich left over from the day before and drank my favourite breakfast power drink. Milo. Can’t live without it. Chowed down an almond Snickers bar too, for the energy. Went down to meet the guys and they were all in full force. Minus the last guy to make it up to Laban Rata. He was still in lala land dreaming about the descent later in the morning. I’ve got all my bags packed, and finally … my mind made up. Well, sorta. I was still entertaining the idea of the possibility of turning back if I ever felt like I couldn’t make it in the journey. But I was gonna check it out first. At least I could tell people that I tried and found it too difficult. What to do … ai bin mah.
On we went! Again! After an 8 and a half hours trek ending just 6 hours ago and with no sleep, I marched out at 3am, in the 8 degrees centigrade weather to face another 3 hour hike to the summit. Sanity out the window. My drive this time was that I’ve made it this far, might as well go all the way. Having gone through an 8 and a half hour journey, and making it .. gave me the confidence of being able to go up another 3 hours to the ultimate goal of this trip: Conquering Mount Kinabalu.
“Yeah!“, I grunt to psyche myself. I took my left glove off to help strap my torchlight to my right hand but 5 steps ahead I slipped and almost twisted my ankle.
“Close call.” I thought to myself. I gave up trying to find a way to strap the torch to my right hand securely, so I just slipped my right hand into the landyard and held it.
“Hey, where’s my glove?” I remember clipping it like an aunty would with her purse under her .. underarm when I took it off earlier. Less than a minute ago. Must have dropped it when I slipped earlier. Search party. Good thing it wasn’t for a dead body. Mine to be exact. “Way to go, Dave. Good start!” I sneered at myself.
Less than 30 minutes into the summit trail, someone’s already given up. I was surprised. Is it that daunting? I was panting, but it was just due to the thin air. My legs were tired, but I think I had enough strength in them chopsticks. First hour is usually the toughest. Turn back? Not yet.
A series of stairs followed, and then came the rope section. We were to use ropes to first scale a 75 degree slope, and then subsequently follow a narrow crack while holding on to horizontal rope railing. When I got to this point, I was excited as it was the first time I’ve ever done anything like this. From this point onwards, I decided not to chicken out anymore, and face whatever that was to come at me ahead in the climb. I like hanging on a rope over a dangerous cliff. What a kid. *chuckles
The ropes section over the cliffs were really interesting. It was my favourite part of the whole climb, really.
We then had to scale a very long 65 degree slope which was not hard, but it was long. It was slightly wet, but my Adidas running shoes provided enough grip for me to scale without using the rope. Then came a rocky stretch which had tiny streams running through them. There was a hut in the middle of this rocky stretch, which served as a checkpoint to log all climbers. I displayed my tag and went on through the rest of the rocky stretch.
At this point, the sky was still dark. Then came the hardest part of the whole entire climb. It was also the hardest moment of the entire climb. By this time, the temperature had already dropped further, and the icy cold wind was blowing. This is the second 65 degree slope we had to scale, again not necessary to use the rope if you can manage. My legs were tired, I couldn’t grab my last banana to prevent the lactic acid from building up in my muscles. I was hungry too. When I said that this moment was the hardest in the entire climb, it was because I had so many times given in to fatigue and the temperature. Over the span of an hour, I broke down mentally twice. I almost came to tears, just thinking about giving up. The guide tells me that I shouldn’t push myself if I didn’t have the strength in my legs to go up, and also to bring myself back down again after that. It was that mental struggle of limits. How far would you push yourself?
I pushed. Till I was able to see the summit. There were little figures that were moving on the summit. Little figures meant there’s still along way to go. By this time the sun had already on the horizon. Prolly close to 6am. Didn’t bother with my watch. Too cold. Another 300 meters to go. Now, it doesn’t sound very much .. but when you’re climbing a mountain .. it is a lot.
And I kept on pushing. Arrived at the foot of the summit. This was physically the hardest moment of the entire climb. The temperature was VERY VERY COLD. I’ve never been in such cold weather before so I was not used to it. By this time, I was way past giving up, cause again .. you can physically see the top. Just the matter of getting there that was so difficult. There were moments where I had to hide behind rocks so that I was not in the way of the billowing cold wind. Just because of the wind.
I huffed.
I puffed.
I slipped.
I panted.
I complained.
I stopped.
I started.
I shouted.
I cursed.
I grunted.
I moaned.
And I made it.
Arriving on the top of the summit, it gave me a short sense of achievement. Short? How can the sense of achievement be short? Well, let’s just say I wasn’t waiting for the fact to dawn upon me. It was too cold to bear. I was there for less than 10 minutes. Even my camera stopped working after I shot the a nearby summit. I got someone to take a picture of me with his camera and I immediately made my way down.
[to be continued. Finale. Tune in Saturday night.]
Here are some pictures. Didn’t shoot many. Too cold.

This was about late 5 am.

The ninja thing didn’t work as well as the ski mask. It was freezing.

First picture I shot from my camera when I reached the top. It froze after that.

Slightly lower than the summit, another peak.

Me ninja. With red cap, and orange mask. And sunglasses. Too cold. Eyes cannot take it.

The view from a little lower than the summit.

Can finally smile and be proud!
David[hmm]
PS : Gosh, I stayed up will 3:40 am this morning to finish this entry.
Ai bin : Direct translation means want face. Desire pride.
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