People can always tell when I am unsettled.
All they need to do is walk into my room. That'll be a big indication.
David[hmm]
Monthly Archive for January, 2007
Last Friday, I left for work and arrived at my office early. I'm usually a careful person, checking every once in a while for my wallet and my mobile phones .. to see if I have misplaced them or not. As I stepped out of my car, I checked and couldn't find my wallet. Then I remembered that I left my wallet in my sling back I brought to worship practice the night before.
Dang. The first time since …. hmm .. I have no recollection of the last time I left my wallet at home.
I survived through lunch, after a colleague paid for it. I was due for an appointment after lunch, and I drove to somewhere between Cuepacs and Kajang. Somewhere. After that unfruitful appointment, I had another appointment in PJ .. and it was about 3:40pm already. The appointment was at 4. So I made my way in my trusty, cracked-windshield-due-to-a-pebble Kelisa down to the highway.
Then I noticed .. my petrol indicator was hovering below the E line.
Dang, I don't think I'll last till PJ .. and if it jams, I'll prolly be the cause of it.
I reached for my back pocket, and found no wallet there. No wallet, no money, no petrol. Oh, I forgot. No license. Cool aye?
Here comes the most interesting part. With no wallet, no money, and no petrol, I naturally had to find means to pay for the petrol. Then I thought to myself,"I wish I had gotten a credit card earlier. Then I wouldn't have to worry about running out of cash to pay for my petrol." "Hmm.. but if I had a credit card, it would be in my wallet, no?"
DUH!
Oh, here's the interesting part. Sorry, got sidetracked. Anyhow, I opened the ashtray in my car and dug out all my loose change out. I was sitting in my car at the petrol pump counting coins. All RM8 of it, which got me ~4 litres of petrol. Poor guy at the counter. Counted all the coins before he could allow me to take RM8 worth of petrol.
I got to PJ safely, albeit getting stuck at the LDP and Federal Interchange after getting off of NPE. Ironic, huh? For someone who didn't have money .. he can afford to pay toll! Ah, the wonders of Touch N' Go.
Moral of the story : Please leave some cash in your car in case of emergencies.
David[hmm]
I wonder if any of you feel the same way about Fridays as I do. Yeah, there's the usual thank-God-it's-Friday/it's-the-weekend kinda thing .. which I, like any normal human being … feel too. But there is one other thing that I have found myself doing on Friday nights, after cell.
I just don't wanna go to bed.
Somehow, I find myself staying up .. just being defiant and deliberately delaying my bedtime. Sometimes, I know that I have something on in the morning but I'll just be .. hard-headed! Most of the time, I'll just put a DVD on .. and that'll last till about 2 am. And then .. I'll prolly hang around on the internet .. see if anyone's worth chatting up. But .. most of the time during the movie, when I close my eyes to rest them … the DVD miraculously fast-forwards itself. Hehe. Then I would have missed a part of the show and I'll just turn the computer off and get to bed.
So .. yeah.
On Friday nights, I'm usually in a defiant mood. Thankfully, it's only after cell.
David[hmm]
A girl left something in my car yesterday. I'm gonna let you guess what it is. Here are some descriptions that you would use.
- It has a purplish trim
- It's soft
- Girls use it when it's wet
- It could come in a longish form, with a string attached at the end of it
- You could sometimes pack it away in a plastic sheet when you are done using it
- It stretches to the front, back, left and right for maximum coverage
I think that's enough description. Whoever guesses it right, will get a meal from me! Ehehehe.
David[hmm]
Some people might have overheard my attempts to converse in Tamil with the mamak fellas I encounter every single time we have supper. Most would just laugh it off and take it as a feeble attempt to make a fool out of myself.
Somehow, I'm beginning to feel as though there was a purpose for it. Who knows. It's the Year of Venture! You never know where God's taking you ..
Even my backpacking trip to .. Sabah. That I feel, will play a huge role in where God's leading me to.
It's scary, but exciting!
David[*eek!]
This is prolly gonna cause some heads to turn, some eyes to roll, and some perceptions to change.
Which is just what I simply LOVE doing.
I’ve had to eat some of my words, last week’s weekend. A bunch of us were at Tse Siang and Siaw Jiun’s place after dinner on Saturday and the topic of BGR came about. Yes, for those who missed out on it .. too bad.
We came upon the topic about whether guys should make the move .. or can girls do the same. For those who know that side of me .. would know that I have a somewhat peculiar expectation, after having gone through some patches with girls. Some have also overheard me proclaim “unintentionally” that I am gonna wait for a girl to make their move on me, before I even bother.
Yeah. What a snob, you’d think.
Ah .. go ahead. I know you want to roll your eyes. Heahea.
But .. I’ve had to eat my words. Yes.
Even though .. I’ve had such a view, that a girl should make her move first on me .. but the few times it happened [or was close to happening], I freaked out.
I F-R-E-A-K-E-D OUT.
First, before I continue .. I’d like to apologize to those I’ve freaked out on. Kay? Apologies accepted? Great. :p Moving on now…
But yeah .. it’s quite a contradiction, isn’t it? What I claim I want, but when I get it … I reject it. Looking back, I think it was because they were from unexpected people, at unexpected times. Or .. more like it didn’t come from the person I am expecting it from.
I guess, if I were to rephrase it .. I’d say,
I’d love it if the girl would initiate the expression of interest in starting a relationship. I mean, if you think there’d be a possibility of a relationship .. just show interest. Initiate.
Again, if the excuse you’re gonna give is, “But I don’t know how to show interest!” .. then it’s time to buy a female magazine. Sure, girls will claim that guys are too kayu … and hinting never works! Here’s a tip. Hint HARDER. If you’ve hinted rock hard, then take the cue, bite the bullet .. and suck it up. He’s just not into you.
But first .. check with your local cell leader or youth pastor. Hehe.
Ah. Just sharing my thoughts.
David[mmm]
Sookie : Updated already!
Let no one look down on your youthfulness, but rather in speech, conduct, love, faith and purity, show yourself an example of those who believe.
1 Timothy 4:12 (NASB)
Have been in the reflective mood these past few days. The year hasn’t started as smooth as I thought it might have been, really. I’ve been meaning to reflect back on what some of the resolutions I kinda made early last year. Here’s the entry, in case you wanna read it.
God’s been good to me. Some of the stuff that I’ve mentioned in this entry have come to pass, and have gone beyond my expectations! For starters, I’ve graduated! Finally. After 5 and a half years, I am finally a degree holder. This brings back memories of when I used to consult Ah Kong [Alfred Wong] during my college days. Boy, was I a confused boy. Boy. *phieuf
As for the fresh anointing in the area of worship, my oh my. Things were pretty slow, early of the year .. but just when I began committing to GT again, I rejoined the worship team and began to devote time to planning and preparing for the times I worship lead. Time and time again, after a service .. I am blown away by how much God does with the little that I devote to him. I mean, the time I put in .. would somehow seem like it was impossible to produce outcomes that is seen during the services but .. it’s just amazing, every time!
It really involves a lot of time, effort, prayer, commitment, and preparation .. which is tough, really .. cause it sounds almost too easy to write. Every time I think back on it, I get the jitters. I always think, “What if I didn’t bother?” or .. “What if I decided not to pray or give careful thought?” Might have turned out to be a disaster, might it not? Stress that comes from the pressure and preparation gets to me all the time, but God always manages to calm me down with His assurance that He always will bring glory to Himself when we desire to glorify and honour Him.
I’ve been leading with the guitar for some time now, and that .. I plan to continue to learn up and develop. It’s been okay, thus far .. but it always feels like I am still not good enough, in terms of .. well .. both sides. My guitar playing isn’t satisfactory, and my voice leaves much to be desired. But despite that, I feel that I’ve gained the respect of my musicians and backup singers. Just enough for me to lead them, but not to the level for me to correct/rebuke them. Just a feeling, I suppose.
Anyway, moving along now.
I questioned myself sometime after I finished Uni, “Where/what/who/how will I be?” I guess, most of the questions have been answered, especially with God’s blessings such as a place to stay here in PJ which is comfy and homely, not failing to mention the good rent. I think I’ve pretty much settled where God wants me to be, physical location wise.
Someone said this last year.
Though I have less, but I have more.
It does feel like I have much, even though I don’t. It’s a feeling that I cannot explain.
And on that note, I praise God for causing the unseen increase.
David[hmm]
PS : I still weigh the same. Sigh
You know .. I've got people coming to me .. wondering why the guys in church aren't making any moves on the girls in cells. They actually ask me questions like, "What's wrong with our guys?", make comments like, "There are so many pretty, good looking, sweet, eligible girls in the cells, but nothing's happening!!"
After pondering, and thinking about it for .. a month or two, I've finally been able to come to a conclusion. Of course, when I say that I have come to a conclusion .. many considerations have been taken in through the process of observation and investigation. I'm sure you've read some posts where I have just presented many points, but have no conclusion. This time, it's different. So .. on to the conclusion!
It's not always the guys' fault.
When those that came to me with the questions, among others .. I gave answers like, "Maybe the guys just aren't ready for relationships yet..", or "Maybe they need to find themselves to be more financially stable." "Maybe they're just plain immature." While I think most of these statements are true simply because I am a guy and I understand the guy's perspective of relationship, I never stopped to think about the girl's side.
I mean, when comments like, "There are so many pretty, good looking, sweet, eligible girls in the cells .." are put forth, automatically .. it became a preconception that the ball is in the hands of the batang fellas. It did take me quite a while to shift that paradigm and think beyond the wooden stick. So .. I observed, evaluated and weighed what's on the other side of the mountain. Mountains. And valleys.
This'll be quite a .. sensitive comment to make, but have I never failed to .. tick people off with my comments?
I think the girls just needs to put more effort in themselves. I mean, don't bring extreme scenarios into play, like being scantily dressed to church, cell or outings. It's not ALWAYS about being beautiful on the outside! It's about being someone on the inside who's worth an investment. It's about having a personality that is attractive, fun-loving and godly.
I read an issue of Cleo, over the holidays and I found so many interesting articles in there! Don't bash me for reading a female magazine, but in it were great articles with tips on how to deal with different kinds of people in a party .. or how to get the guy that you want according to the type of his personality or behaviour .. I thought they were pretty good and well thought of! Most of all, what was surprising to me was .. that most of it were written by guys.
To be frank, I found many of the author's points agreeable, and if some girl were to "use" it on me, I would be really attracted! I mean, forget the .. flirty ones, but knowing other ways on how to react to a guy when he does something .. other than just the conventional reactions or worse still .. the blur look .. would really make an interesting person to talk to. There something uncannily SEXY about NOT knowing how a girl would react to .. jokes, or .. advances, or .. you know .. romantic comments.
Scare us, throw a tantrum, go berserk! I don't know about the other guys, but I thrive on .. pure spontaneity! Not people who .. complain, grumble, talk behind people's back, come blur to functions/cell .. Gosh. Be sophisticated. Not complicated, but sophisticated. Be determined because strong, determined women turns me on. Well, me. Aha. And show it! Be proud of who you are, and strive for excellence in areas that you know God has called you to be in!
Now, that's attractive! When you love God .. you don't need perfume for people to catch a whiff of your beauty!
Gosh, this is entry's becoming like a .. womens' pep talk session.
But yeah, I know of some very eligible bachelors around .. but .. somehow .. they're just not interested. Why? Maybe there's no one interesting enough.
Hello.
Wake up, girls.
David[hmm]
… no money.
Would you believe it? I had absolutely no cash in my wallet. Zilch. What a way to start the new year, huh? I remember joking with PuayLeng sometime ago .. maybe God wants me to start the year with a clean sheet. She thought I was referring to a debt free start, but I was referring to not having any money.
Guess it kinda came true.
But ..
My God shall supply all my needs, according to His riches and glory!
David[hoowoo!]
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