Monthly Archive for July, 2007

catalyst

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David
on July 31, 2007
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From Dictionary.com,

“something that causes activity between two or more persons or forces without itself being affected”

This definition of the word catalyst is amazing. When I was describing how my relationship started, the word catalyst came to me and I gave it a bit of thought before I saved a draft of it.

You might be thinking: Someone caused an activity between this ah boy and ah girl (from nowforth, shall be known as!), without itself being affected .. Well, you’d be disappointed to know that you thought wrong. Hah.

Before this, I’ve always felt like I was CAPPED. Like there was a limit to what God could do with my life. I have tried to break through that persistent glass ceiling that has hovered above my relationship with God for the longest time with my own strength, but to no avail. I had full knowledge of what limited me, and knew the right steps to overcome it, but never could. The frustrations of having an invisible barrier that blocks God’s destiny, purpose and plan for my life has been getting the better of me for the longest time now.

Then ah girl came along.

She, without being affected by anything .. caused my relationship with God to leapfrog to a greater level beyond my very own reach, much like a catalyst.

accountability

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David
on July 27, 2007
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Now, we don’t suspect, but we know.

The words suspect, suspicion doesn’t ALWAYS carry a very positive impression. When someone suspects something of you, it usually is associated with something that you might be doing wrong. Of course, when good things happen, people can suspect too .. but when it’s a good thing .. they’ll just ask it outright.

When it comes to relationships, it’s quite an odd thing to be suspected of; it happened to us a couple of times when we were spotted.

Now, how many times have you been spotted with a girl/guy .. even though it was just a normal social outing, and have your friends or even not-so-close friends talk about it behind your back? And suddenly, you find them teasing you, and as much as you speak the truth and deny any form of extra-platonic relationship going on .. they still continue?

Well, if you don’t know how to handle that .. it might spiral out of control, and affect possibly a beautiful friendship that would have blossomed into a good Christian testimony. Then you’ll find that you begin to lose precious friends of the opposite gender, and lose insight into that all so foreign world [works both ways, kay? You women know as much as us guys know about you ..]

I think I was able to avoid such majority of these cases just simply by ignoring it. Of course, it helps when you have a buddy-in-crime to help confuse them to a point where they don’t bother asking or thinking about teasing you .. but ..

… an easier, less confusing way would be … being accountable with someone. Just someone who you can trust and is mature, and make that accountability relationship known to the community that you are in. So if anyone within .. or outside of your community ever have doubts or uncertainties of how you behave .. at least they can check with someone. This makes up for a lot of explaining .. when things go out of hand because you have at least two parties who are in the knowing of the situation, and if they don’t trust the source .. they at least can trust someone who’s mature, level-headed but more importantly, not in the picture.

Sometimes, information from a reliable 3rd party source comes in handy.

As I mentioned earlier, we were spotted twice .. and at both occasions, they checked with her mom and … let’s just say that I am extremely thankful that the mother didn’t need to hear about her daughter’s involvement with a guy from people other than us.

Of course, we haven’t gone public … but we recognize that we need to cover our bases properly … so yeah, we’re working on telling the leaders, especially Ps. Julie. Most of them would prolly know by now, though.

But my point is .. be accountable. Not only in matters pertaining to relationships .. but in your life as a whole.

Hmm .. sometimes .. your accountability partner could also be called .. your partner-in-crime .. hehe.

Mine’s gone for a holiday though. Wonder when he’ll be back.

the way to a man’s heart …

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David
on July 26, 2007
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… is his stomach.

It’s true! Feed me and I’m a happy boy. And I think she knows that. I’ve got packed lunch today .. *wink

Brings a whole new light to the phrase,”Eat your heart out!”

UPDATE : I’m in heaven. It was awesome. Spaghetti in white sauce with bacon. I LOVES. I absolutely LOVES.

lunch on the hills, dinner in the valley, durians for the family!

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David
on July 23, 2007
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We had lunch on the hills yesterday.

It was a 50 minute drive through the rain but as we exited KL, we left the rainclouds behind, and stepped into a beautiful day. We packed some sandwiches, ate in the cool ambience of the hills. The rain came eventually, got our hair a bit wet but it was fun running in the rain!

We left shortly, and went further east, to a place where I grew up and brought her around. Also went to see the famous waterfall, but it was packed with people so we left.

It was another long drive back to the depressing rain in the city of Klang Valley back to her place, where my body finally gave in to fatigue from all the running about. I developed a headache and mild fever .. but after a Panadol, some shut eye, and a nice hot B I G bowl of noodles, I was up and running again.

Dropped her off where her family was and headed to a cell member’s birthday celebration. Up and running indeed.

Everyone knows Bentong durians are the best, right? She said that her dad and family appreciate durians .. so before we left Bentong, I stopped and bought 3 durians for them!

Later that night, they tried it and .. I think … the durian test .. passed! :p

Have a good week, y’all!

the cell talk

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David
on July 19, 2007
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I went out with my cell leader day before yesterday, forced her to buy me dinner. She had to, cause of all the juicy bits that she got from me.

Anyhow … as of late, the frustrations that I have with cell, where and what it is now and where and what it should be drove me to question my role in cell. Ps. Julie told me that there’s 3 things that I can do:

  • If you can’t fight them, join them!
  • If you can’t join them, fight them!
  • If you can’t fight and/or join them, leave!

Of course, she said it in a more pastoral manner.

But she asked me to pray about it. So I prayed and as I received the word/assurance from God, I am acting upon it now. I don’t know if it’s fighting, or joining .. but I sure can tell you that I’m not leaving.

The only way to enter into ministry is to enter humbly. And humbly I come, under my cell leader. I think she was taken aback when I said,”I’m coming alongside you, to help in whatever areas that you require help.” I recognize that I have NOT been the most supportive cell member, due to reasons which I finally realize is extremely trivial hence, I’ve got to set that right by just providing my unending, undisputed support.

Ministry is about serving others, and it should be of a modus operandi rather than a concept that is never applied, a head knowledge that is never turned into action. I’ve been away long enough to have forgotten, but now that I’ve come to the realization of it, it’s time!

At the end of the night, I said this to my cell leader:

“I want to make this cell group function as it should be. What about you?”

What about you?

sudden realization

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David
on July 18, 2007
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that I have been so blessed, so loved by God through her.

I was telling a friend about how I have not had a reaction to all these that’s happening and .. suddenly, as I sat at my desk and thought about her ..

I felt overwhelmed ..

..  and shed a tear of sheer joy.

second first time

Published
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David
on July 17, 2007
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What about the first time?

I remember when I was young and stupid, I fell into my first relationship. [It was a trap, I tell you.] There was this girl, who was just coming off a breakup and was happily looking for a rebound. Then I came along, and got shipped to coupleland.

2 months later, I called it off and she cried like .. the whole world was gonna end. 2 weeks after, she was with another dud.

I remember when I was young and stupid.

I thank God that He rescued me at the most essential time of my life where I truly discovered Him, and from there discovered my identity in Him. I recognized at that time, no relationship is worth keeping if it keeps me away from what God had for me at that very frame of time in my life. It was then that my calling of leadership was reinforced and my character was shaped.

Six and a half years later, I’m at my second first time.

This time, it really feels like a first time. Yesterday, as I referred to her as my girlfriend for the very first time, I froze and had goosebumps all over my body.

Ah, guess some things just takes getting used to.

Like holding hands. I have not touched her at all, actually. Interesting, aye? Never felt like I needed to. Was talking to someone about the physical and non-physical aspects of closeness, and I guess after the first very physical relationship [It was a trap, I tell you. She taught me all the bad stuff!], I’m just a bit wary with the physical side of things.

But just as long as we’re both comfortable and within the boundaries of a good Christian couple, right? Right.

I hope I get it right this first time.

Autobots, ROLL OUT!

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David
on July 17, 2007
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Yeah, they’re rolling out all right. Here’s a screenshot of my desktop.

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new season!

Published
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David
on July 16, 2007
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And now it begins, a boy’s journey into a new season.

A new season of life, a new season in Christ, a new season in ministry, and lastly new season with someone special.

like mah like lor!

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David
on July 15, 2007
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I think sometimes Christians complicate relationships.

If you’re asking me the context of relationship I am referring to, I’m not gonna bother answering you.

First thing we as good, holy, examplary Christians do is ask God,”Lord, is he/she the one for me?”
Then we start thinking about agreement in the Spirit, through confirmation from church elders and mentors.
We talk to friends, and get mixed reactions and they tell us all the pros and cons, and we end up confused.
Then we ask him/her out for dinner.
“Oh, was it a date? Aren’t Christians NOT supposed to go around dating? What happened to Joshua Harris’ I Kissed Dating Goodbye book? GASP!”
Someone from church spots you going out with a girl. People start talking. We get all worked up when people start asking,”Hey are you two going out?” and the answer that we provide is,”No.” because … you’re not so sure if he/she’s the one or not yet.
No confirmation from church leaders yet mah. Right?

While all these stuff are well and good, and it shows that you desire to honour God by keeping things proper and in check .. but ..

LIKE MAH LIKE LOR!

Why talk so much? Why think so much?

I think I’m ready.